It’s been well over a month since our last #summerofrich adventure took place. There’s been several personal reasons for it and probably some poor excuses added into the mix when it comes to my love (but mostly) hate relationship with winter. I’ve really missed it though.
This most recent lockdown in Ontario seems to be having way more of an impact on my mental health than all the other ones combined. I’m just done. I feel like I’m being suffocated.
The good news is though that I finally had a few solid hours of uninterrupted sleep last night after going for days without any (see my most recent blog: https://youareenough712.wordpress.com/2022/01/14/nighttime-depression/); I guess it eventually catches up to you!
I felt a bit more energized this morning for the first time in a long while yet extremely jittery. I began to shake as though I’d been pumped up on a gallon or so of caffeine. I couldn’t sit still. I wanted to run, not literally of course because I despise running! But I needed to do something to stop the feeling I was experiencing.
A #summerofrich hike crossed my mind, but only for a brief moment until I remembered that it was like minus 25 degrees outside today. So now what? Where can we go when there is nowhere to go because everything is shut down? I felt trapped. I could feel myself spiraling. I could not sit home today even if it was so damn cold outside. I just needed to move my body and get the fuck out of my head so badly.
So we decided to venture to a mall to walk around, something which is way out of my comfort zone but it seemed like a perfect alternative for us today and not to mention about the only thing still open.
We strolled through the open corridors, did some window shopping and people watching (our equivalent to observing nature), worked up a sweat from lugging around our heavy coats, smelled some sweet aromas, stretched our bodies and cleared our heads, and for a short while it kinda felt as normal as is humanly possible right now.
We may not have been able to breathe in the crisp winter air today or hear the chirpy sounds in nature or smell the beautiful scents that come from being in the great outdoors but the change of scenery felt both refreshing and rejuvenating and we even escaped unscathed from any signs of frostbite or hypothermia.
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